summer 09 could be your time to shine

i don't like powder pink
but it's so so better than dirty white
and therefore it is a good color

and i am happy to see it

ok, sure, i guess that one day
i will walk into a room dressed in taupe or merrigold
and think
whyyyy on earth did i pull THAT card

oh, i remember
it was better than the dirt

and it is
and i open my eyes some mornings and see past it
because everything else is so cemetrical
and tidy
and i thank tidy
for making powder pink
less strange

and besides
it took so long to get here
to this powder pink
and i was so tired from the walking
up and down and up and down the quad
that i just said,
hey, civic, take me home and let's get this over with

but i'll have to spend another 874 minutes wiping off touches
from messy shadowy things
who probably put cigarettes in empty bottles on the floor
and leaned back in their kitchen chairs
and chewed with their mouths open
and didn't buy new sponges, ever
(except that loofa she left me,
complete with mold and lice, i think).

and it will be 4 am
and i will be in a lump
on a bathroom floor
with a razor blade
scraping moldy things from around a shower stall
because some creature was too indie and important
to use a bath mat

its not that i want to spend all my summer nights
in this cold, polluted basement
i find that running with the ms-13 crowd
and 17 year old g's (before they become gents)
doesnt sit well with my stomach

which is the whole point